Paul Price does not know how close he was to death on the night of the Manchester Arena bombing.
For a long time he could not bring himself to talk about her.
"And I'm ashamed to say it, but for such a long time I remember thinking my hurt was so much that I thought if someone could give me a tablet and I could forget about her, I'd be OK.
Mr Price describes how much pride she took in her work and how proud she was to be a police officer, helping to keep people safe.
Mr Price said: "They all say we will learn from this...
On the night Abedi murdered Ms McIver and 21 others, he hid for nearly an hour in a CCTV blind spot in the foyer of the Manchester Arena - a public area connected to the railway station next door.
Mr Price said he has felt particularly upset by revelations at the inquiry about the behaviour of British Transport Police (BTP), who were responsible for policing the station and foyer areas.
Mr Price said: "After the explosion there was heroics and you know, they stepped up, but the failings before the explosion were unforgivable as far as I'm concerned.
Today will be yet another difficult day for Mr Price and all those impacted by the atrocity at Manchester Arena?
He said: "For such a long time I thought I could never be happy again, I felt life was a prison sentence I had to endure...
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