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“[My mother] beat two teeth out of my f – – king mouth with a broom,” he told GQ in 2019 of the abuse he reportedly endured at the hands of his mother when DMX was only 6 years old. .

“Earl is a person who still holds onto a lot of things he suffered in the past, as a child,” his former manager, Nakia Walker, told Houston Press in 2011.  .

“He holds onto things, instead of talking about things and releasing.

As a kid, he found comfort in befriending stray dogs as roamed the streets of Yonkers at night to escape brutal child abuse at the hands of his mother and her boyfriends

DMX believed his mom, who was only 19 years old when she became pregnant with him, didn’t know how to love him.  

“Children don’t come with a f – – king instruction manual,” the lyricist told GQ. â€œFour sisters; I’m the only boy

(Despite their problematic past, Simmons and his mother have since made amends.)

Simmons further lamented over the life-altering deception via the song “Pain,” in which he says: “I smoked crack at 14 for the first time / Given to me by a n – – – a that I idolized / My love is real, but after that, what I saw in his eyes / Was a snake, and who I loved was just a disguise.”

The harrowing incident would sound the starting pistol to Simmons’ lifelong battle with substance abuse

“But talking is actually one of the bravest things you can do

One of the bravest things you can do is … let it out.”