Jennifer Lopez Says She “Felt Like [She] Was Gonna Die” After Breakup with Ben Affleck - Harper's BAZAAR

“Once we called off that wedding 20 years ago, it was the biggest heartbreak of my life.”.

Jennifer Lopez got real about the heartbreak she endured after calling off her engagement to Ben Affleck more than 20 years ago.

It’s all just right there on the record and I didn't even realize what was happening or what I was doing.

"When I listen to the lyrics now, I didn't even realize that I was writing some of our story that would happen, which was sick.

… I didn't even realize it was kind of prophetic in a way.".

Once we called off that wedding 20 years ago, it was the biggest heartbreak of my life.

They would be like 'that would never happen so we're not gonna write that because nobody would believe it' ending.".

She said Affleck even questioned why she didn't perform songs from This Is Me...

It felt at times unfair, but neither one of us is that person to be like, 'Woe is me.' So we were like, 'Well, we just gotta dust it off and keep it moving.' And I think, in the weirdest way, that it motivated both of us to then become and do the things that we wound up doing, which is kind of go into hyper gear.

Lopez told Lowe that she feels most inspired to write and make music when she's happy in love, which is why she returned to the studio to record her latest album upon her reunion with Affleck.

Lo Says Ben Inspired Her to Write New Music